Katie-Taps-Popcorn

ok... so I want to go to india, and I want to go to grad school... and I need a reference for KPC. SO MANY REFERNCES!!! ok... so today I got my appplication for grad school and It has to be in before march 1 to beconsidered for a anprenticship( I CANT SPELL) so I need to get moving! well the application it self is all done... I just need to work on my residency paper work, my resume, my personal statment, my transcripts, and my refrences. I'm really excited. I want to get it in the mail to UNCG before valtines day. then my india paper work I want in by April 1... So I got to get cracking! I'm working on getting refrences right now. But I just dont know who to talk to at council. I'll start calling random people. I'm really excited about life right now. So many opertunities... OH it also looks like instead of 6months in india I'm going to apply for a diffrent posotions that it there for almost 9 months. I'm excited but It means a huge commitment. But its something I totaly want to do!!! also I have been reading a book that andi gave me and its really good !!! its about supervising staff and in reading it I AM SO GETTING EXCITED FOR CAMP!!!

ok... its bed time... TIME TO DREAM OF GRAD SCHOOL AND INDIA AND CAMPCAMPCAMPCAMPCAMP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: nerdy
Current Music: TV-king of queens - HEHEHE FUNNY

I"M GOING TO INDIA!!!!!!!!!!! well not yet at least... I want to go work for 6 months at the girl scout world center there and it would be awsome!!! I have to pee and work on my application!!! ALSO CAMP BOOKS CAME OUT TODAY!!!! WO EXCITMENT OVER LOAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: hyper

I LOVE ANDI WITH ALL MY HEART!ps... how do I get in to your live lournal??? I'll call later today... OH see you at work hopefully!

Current Mood: dirty
Current Music: TV-ech

Good evening all... I really feel like I'm living in a dream lately... mostly becuase I slept alot today... but I think that I am livingin a dream. I have been thinking alot about my life and what it really means and what I need to do with my life but I cant decide. I really want to work at camp. but that seems like its only a job that you have for a few years before you move on and i dont know if I want that. look at smokey, she came and went in 6 years.... and I dont want to leave ever... I mean CAMP but I want to be at camp and live there and be happy but I dont want to ever have to move jobs or feel the need to move on.... but I know that is will happen. With me totaly! I have to move every 4 years or so. but is going to grad school really want I want? all that extra time in school... and for what? a masters? my parents dont think I can do it and somehow I feel that I need there support witch is FUNNY cause I donthave there support with anything that I DO! I went to LORAS is IOWA they didnt like that decision. I moved TO NORTH CAROLINA I WORK AT CAMPS!!! I dont need there aproval and somehow I feel like I do... I want to beable to call my mom up and be all excited and happy about camp and school and have her share in my excitment but I know that she wont. and thats a sucky feeling....

I just realized that this journal is more like my thought and helping me figure out all my issues... I mean I still talk to me cat... but she has been weird lately and I know that I can talk to people but there are some things that you just dont talk about. these are the things that I dont tell anyone... and it funny to think that I'm writing them on the internet... but I fell safe.

RANDOM THOGUTHS
have you ever just sat in a dark room and cried? I'm feeling really down on my self but I just feel weird... I feel like a dark room.... you cant see anyone but you know that people are there... but you also feel so alone... face it katie you move to north carolina and you have a few friends... Andi( she has her dream job and thats great for her but I feel like I should let her settle but I know that I need her) then there is ECHO who I love dearly and if anything ever happened in our relationship that would make us hate eachother I think that I would die... we joked around once and had a pretend fight and it was bad! then there is Cole-slaw but she has school and work and her other friends... and ther is all the other camp people but they are at school and have there own lives to live... and then I think what I left behind... all my LORAS friends and then on top of that all MY SEATTLE FRIENDS like robin and NETTA and nick and everyone! I love them all dearly but I dont see them enogh... BLAH! ok... its late... I'm going to read a book and escape in to a happy place... I think I might read little big.... its good so far I would recomend it!

Current Mood: restless
Current Music: scilence... only the cat being weird

ok, so there is alot going on in life and I just dont know how to deal with it. I want to run away again but I dont have $$. I hate my job at council!!! STUPID FLIPPING CRACK HEAD boss, I cant stand her and every time she trys to talk to me I just want to kick her in the head. I know thats not nice but please! she is a B*#@H and I get so MAD! I hate my job because its a dead end!!!! I JUST WANT TO BE AT CAMP AND WORK WITH KIDS AND JUST AWAY FORM THE REAL WORLD CRAP! I need a dregree... well friday night I decided that I was going to work at KPC for one more summer and then I want to get an internship so that I can get more experience in leadership and even as a camp director or an asst. director. I hate this life and I just want to be happy and I know that camp can make me happy. THats where I want to be all the time. When I'm away from camp and camp poeple and KIDS I go crazy!!! I wish that I couold just run away! ok... this posting is all frustration! and I'm sorry. I just want to run away from everything except camp!! ok... well got to study and shower and sleep eventually .... 143 days till staff traning starts!!! arn't you excited !!! I AM

LATER KIDS

popcorn, TAPS, katie

Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: CAMP CD

well hello all... long time no talk to because I'm a bad person and forgot my password... and dont remember what e-mail I gave live journal...But anywho!!!

I have started school again, to finnish school in may. Thats my undergreaduate.... at uncg.. in North Carolin, yes I have ended up in North Carolina, for some reasson... I cant quite remember...But life is good... I have an apparment in greensboro and I work for the girl scouts and I love my job. I live alone, with 4 cats currently, however only one is mine, and I still need to find homes for 2 of the kittens. If you know anyone, let me know. I have also started school again FUCK LORAS is all I can say. I know thats not nice but jeeze they caused alot of stress in my life in the past 9 months. But soon I'll be completly done and I'll never have to talk to loras college people again. well going to sleep talk to you all later

Current Mood: exhausted

so its been forever since I wrote on my jrounel and its been forever since I thouhgt about this stuff... I'm not going to little notch... and that makes me soooo happy... for a few reasons! IM GOING TO KPC!!! other good news is that I got a cute little kittie and her name is Tulual and I love her... and I'm gettong ready to go to camp... I'm packing already and I'm cleanning out my car and I cant wait!! ok... I'm going to go home! later

so... its been awhile... and today when I checked my e-mail I had e-mail from zip, jersey and beeker and mustang... and I felt so loved... also this weekend jersey and beeker called me and I got text messages from Andi, and now... i'm talking to bubbles on aol. can my life get any better? oh yah and I had a job interview!!!! I'll find out this week! I am again sitting in class chilling, and its not that bad cause hes not watching me and seeing that I'm not paying attention... we have a test next week and I'll study some time... lets see if there is anything new... I LOVE CAMP PEOPLE!! I'm wearing my staff pants and shirt... um... I am hopefully going to see my ECHO this weekend but there might be complications... oh yah... my roomate dan, sat next to me naked on friday... a little scary... but normal life at my house! my mom is comming for my show!!! and I am going to be in Dubuque for Christmass... thats a little sad... ok... I'll write more latter... I need to pay attention he just mentioned the word test! I love you all

I'm sitting in this boring class... waiting and waiting for it to be over... and eventually I'm sure it will be... but it seems to be going on forever.
So this is my first entry ever!!! andi helped me get one and I really love her and her sister, and all my camp people!!! I miss then all so much... I want to be back in michigan and just pretend that camp never ended... but any who... life is so flipping busy... NO ONE CARES ABOUT THE RERUM NOVARUM!!! AHHHHHHHHHHH class SUcks... so I feel that I should fill my time... but just typing... but I have run out of anything to talk abouit... I'll write more later... OH wish me luck... I have a job interview today!!! later